TERRIFIED. C. B. Gilford.
Paul Santin had had a good day. Small town doctors and
drug stores were doing a thriving business, and, therefore, so was Paul Santin,
pharmaceutical salesman. But it had been a long day, and now it was past
eleven. Santin was driving fast on the country back road, trying to make it
home before midnight.
He was tired, sleepy, fighting to stay awake for
another half hour. But he was not dozing. He was in complete control of his
car. He knew what he was doing.
He’d passed few other cars. Right now the road seemed
deserted. He’d chosen this route just for that reason. Light traffic. And
that’s the way it was – an almost empty road – when he saw the other car.
He saw it first as a pair of headlights rounding the
curve a quarter mile ahead. The lights were fantastically bright, and the
driver failed to dim them. Santin cursed him, whoever he was. He dimmed his own
lights, but received no answering courtesy. He cursed again, vindictively
switched his own lights back to highway brightness. But he sensed no real
danger in it.
He was vaguely aware that the other car was rocketing
toward him at high speed. Too much speed for the kind of road they were on.
Mechanically, he slacked off (1) on the accelerator, concentrated on
staying on his side of the road, and on not looking directly at those oncoming
But it was much too late when he realized the other
car was hogging (2) the centre of the road. And he had to make his
decision too quickly. Whether he bore right in, perhaps leaning on his horn,
hoping the other driver would pull aside. Or to hit the shoulder (3) and
take his chances with gravel and dirt.
He took the second choice, but not soon enough. He saw
the other car wasn’t going to concede an inch; so he swerved to the right. The
blow was delivered against his left rear fender and wheel. The rear of his car
skidded ditchward ahead of the front. Then the whole car seemed to defy
gravity. It rolled sideways, leaped into the air, throwing Santin clear of
itself at the top of the leap.
He didn’t see or hear the final crash of the machine.
All his consciousness was in the impact of his body against the hillside that
met him like a solid wall; then he slid downwards in the midst of a miniature
avalanche of small stones and dirt. Afterward he lay still, and so was all the
world around him.
In that first moment, he felt no pain. The shock had
numbed him. But he knew he was alive. He knew he was conscious. He was also
distantly, vaguely aware that his body was broken and beginning to bleed.
The blinding lights were gone. He was lying on his
back in a patch of weeds. Above him were the stars and a bright full moon. They
seemed closer to him than they had ever seemed before. Perhaps it was that
optical illusion that first gave him the idea he was going to die.
At that moment, he felt no anger about it. He could
remember his anger before the crash, but it was a distant, unreal thing to him.
Again the thought of dying flitted across his mind. The dying feel nothing toward
other creatures. They are completely concerned with themselves.
Then he heard the voices. A renewal of contact with
the world. There’d been people in that other car. He wondered about them, calmly,
without fury, without sympathy. But he gave all his attention to the listening.
«He isn’t here». A masculine voice a bit young.
The other car had been hit too. It had been stopped.
Or perhaps the driver had stopped the car without being forced to. Anyway, the
people from the car, whoever they were, had walked back to his car and were
looking for him.
To help him? His first instinct was to call out, guide
them to where he lay. They’d been selfish in hogging the road, but now they
were charitable, wanting to aid. But then another instinct rose to fight
against the first. Would they really be friendly? Suddenly he felt terrified of
them. Without knowing why. Surely everybody wants to help accident victims.
«He must have been thrown out». A girl’s voice
«I guess so. What’ll we do?». The same masculine
voice. So there must be only two of them.
«Look for him», the girl said.
A hesitation. «Why?».
Another hesitation. «Don’t you want to know what
happened to him ... or her?».
«I don’t know». The masculine voice trembled. «I don’t
«I think we ought to look around and find him».
«Okay ... It’s dark though».
«You’ve got a flashlight, haven’t you?».
«Sure. I’ll get it».
Footsteps up on the road. The boy returning to his own
car for the flashlight. And then silence again.
Santin waited, trembling in a sweat of a new fear. He
hadn’t liked the sound of those voices. That boy and girl weren’t people who
would care. If he was dying, they weren’t people who would be of much help.
If he was dying? He was certain of it. The pain was
beginning now. He could identify it in several places. His face, his chest,
both his legs. And somewhere deep inside him, where nobody could reach but а
doctor. That was the area of pain that made him certain of death.
So it didn’t matter, did it? Whether or not they found
him with their flashlight?
«Okay, I’ve got it». The boy’s voice. «Where do we
«In the ditch, I guess».
Scuffling footsteps, disturbing gravel, crunching
through grass and brush. Then a winking light, sweeping back and forth. Both
the light and the footsteps getting nearer. Inevitably, they would find him. He
could speed their search by calling to them. But he didn’t. He waited.
The light was in his face. Paralyzed, he couldn’t seem
to turn away from it. The footsteps hurried. And then they were there. Two
forms standing over him, outlined against the sky. And the light shining in his
eyes. He blinked, but they didn’t seem to understand that the light bothered
«He’s alive». The girl. «His eyes are open».
«Yeah. I see ...».
«But he’s hurt». The figure who was the girl knelt
down beside him, mercifully shielding him from the flashlight. Because of the
brightness of the moon, he could see her face.
She was young, terribly young, sixteen maybe. She was
pretty too, her hair dark, her skin
pale, perhaps abnormally so, her made-up mouth lurid in contrast. But there was
no emotion in her face. She was in shock possibly. But as her eyes roved over
his injuries, no sympathy lighted in her eyes.
«You’re pretty badly hurt, aren’t you?». The question
was right at him.
«Yes ...». He discovered he could speak without great
«Where? Do you know?».
«All over, I guess. Inside especially».
The girl was thoughtful over his reply. Her next
question seemed cold, calculated. «Do you think you could pull through if we
He thought too, gave himself time to answer. But even
so, he made a mistake. «I think I’m going to die», he said, and knew he had
made a mistake as soon as he’d said it.
The girl’s face changed somehow, imperceptibly. Santin
couldn’t fathom the change. He only knew it had happened. She pulled away from
him, rose to her feet, rejoining the boy.
«He’s going to die», she said. As if she knew it as
certainly as Santin himself.
«There’s no use trying to find a doctor then, is
there?». The boy sounded relieved, as if his responsibility for this whole
thing had ended now.
«I guess not».
«What’ll we do then?».
«Nothing, I guess. Just wait here. A car’s bound to
come along sometime».
«We can ride back to town then, huh?». The boy seemed
to depend completely on the girl for leadership.
«Sure. We can send a doctor or somebody back. But this
guy will probably be dead by then. And we’ll have to report to the police».
«We’ll have to. You killed a man».
There was silence then. Santin lay at their feet,
looking up at the two silhouetted figures. They were talking about him as
already dead. But somehow it didn’t anger him yet. Maybe because he considered
himself dead too.
«Arlene ... what’ll they do to me?».
«Who, the police?».
«Yes ... You said I killed a man».
«Well, you did, didn’t you?».
The boy hesitated. «But it was an accident», he
managed finally. «You know it was an accident, don’t you, Arlene? I mean, it
just happened ...».
They were talking softly, but Santin could hear every
word they said. And he felt compelled somehow to speak. «Every accident is
somebody’s fault», he told them.
They were startled. He could see them look at each
other, then down at him again. «What do you mean by that, mister?», the boy
asked after a moment.
«This accident was your fault. That’s what I mean». He
still wasn’t angry. That wasn’t why he argued. But he felt the blame should be
«How was it my fault?».
«First of all, you didn’t dim your lights ...».
«Well, neither did you».
«I did at first».
«But you switched back to highway lights again».
«Only after you refused to dim».
The boy was silent again for a moment. Then he said,
«But when we hit, you had your lights on bright».
Santin had to admit it. «I got mad», he said. «But
that’s not the most important thing. You were driving over on my side of the
The boy’s face went around to the girl. «Arlene, was I
on his side of the road?».
It seemed she giggled. Or something like it. «How do I
know? We were –».
She didn’t finish the sentence, but Santin guessed the
rest of it. They’d been necking, or petting, or whatever young people called it
these days. That was why the boy hadn’t dimmed his lights. And that was why
he’d had poor control of his car. And now he, Santin had to pay the price of
their good time.
It angered him, finally. With a curious sort of anger.
Detached somehow, separate from himself. Because now in the long run it didn’t
really matter to him. Since he was going to die.
But also Santin felt a certain satisfaction. He could
speak vindictively, and with assurance. «You see, you were on the wrong side of
the road. So it was your fault».
The boy heard him, but he kept looking at the girl.
«What will they do to me?», he asked her. «The police, I mean. What will they
do to me?».
«How do I know?», she snapped at him. She’d been so
calm. Now maybe the initial shock was wearing off. Now maybe she was becoming
«Even if I was on the wrong side of the road», the boy
said, «it was still an accident. I didn’t try to run into this guy’s car. I
didn’t try to kill him».
«That’s right ...».
«You read about these things in the paper. Nothing
much happens to the driver. Maybe he gets fined. But my dad can pay that. And
even if I had to go to gaol, it wouldn’t be for long, would it, Arlene? What do
you think it would be? Thirty days?».
«Or maybe sixty. That wouldn’t be so bad».
Santin listened to them. And slowly the anger welled
higher in him. Or maybe even ninety days, he could have added. Some insurance
company would pay. But the killer himself wouldn’t pay nearly enough. Ninety
days for murder.
«There’s just one thing», the boy said suddenly.
«It’ll be called an accident. And maybe it’ll be
called my fault. A little bit anyway. That is, if this guy here doesn’t spout
off (4) to anybody».
«About who dimmed lights and who didn’t. And who was
on whose side of the road. But of course he can’t spout off if he’s dead».
«That’s right». There was suddenly something strange
in the girl’s voice, an awareness.
«So he’s got to be dead. Do you see what I mean,
«He said he was going to die ...».
«Yeah, but he doesn’t know. And neither do we. But
he’s got to die. We’ve got to make sure he dies». The boy’s voice went up suddenly,
towards the pitch of hysteria.
Santin saw the girl clutch the boy’s arm and look up
into his face. The whole posture of her body denoted fear.
«There’s another thing too». The boy spoke swiftly,
almost babbling. «My dad has told me about insurance. They have to pay more for
a guy who’s just crippled than for a guy who’s dead. They pay big money to
cripples. I don’t know whether our insurance is that big. If this guy doesn’t die,
and is just hurt real bad, it might cost us a lot more than the insurance we
got. And, man, what my dad would do to me then».
The girl was terrified now. «But he’s going to die»,
she whispered hoarsely.
«How do we know that, Arlene? How do we know?».
Santin felt no pain now. Only fury. They hadn’t
offered to help him. They wanted him dead. They were selfish, unbelievably
selfish. And they were cruel enough to discuss all this right in front of him.
Suddenly, the boy was kneeling, and the flashlight was
probing Santin’s face again. Santin blinked in the glare, but despite it, he
got his first look at the boy. Young. Young like the girl. But not calm like she’d
been. Panic was in his eyes. And he was hurt too. An ugly scalp wound marred
the left side of his head, and blood was matted in his hair.
«How do you feel, mister?», the boy asked.
Santin disdained to answer. He wouldn’t give them the
same satisfaction again. He wouldn’t tell them of the hot flood of pain that
washed over him in ever-growing waves. He wouldn’t tell them he’d already heard
death whispering in his ear, cajoling him to let go of life.
But he saw the desperation in the boy’s face. The boy
searched farther with the flashlight, playing it up and down Santin’s body.
Then he stood up.
«He doesn’t look like he’s hurt bad enough to die», he
told the girl.
No, it doesn’t look like that, Santin thought. The
damage is inside. But it’s just as fatal. Don’t tell them though. Let them
sweat. And you might stay alive till somebody comes.
A sudden eruption of pain blotted out his thoughts,
leaving him barely conscious.
The girl screamed, and it was as though she was
screaming for him. The boy had apparently struck him in some way. «What are you
doing?», she demanded.
The boy’s answer was almost a scream too. «He’s got to
die. I’ve got to make him die».
There was a strain of decency in the girl somewhere.
Or a woman’s compassion. «But you can’t kill him», she told the boy fiercely.
«What difference does it make?», he argued back, with
hysteria in his voice again. «I’ve already killed him, haven’t I? He’s just got
to die quick, that’s all. Don’t you understand, Arlene?».
Obviously she didn’t. She clung to him, holding him
«Nobody will ever know the difference», he told her.
There was logic in his argument. «He’s hurt already. They’ll think it’s from
They were silent for a little while. «All right, Vince»,
he heard her say finally.
And still all Santin could do was to lie there.
Probably he was going to be beaten and kicked to death. Murdered deliberately,
logically, to protect a weak, vicious kid. Somehow he hadn’t been so afraid of that
other death. But he was afraid of this one. This death had a quality of horror
«No!», he yelled at them with all his strength. «No!».
The flashlight in the boy’s hand probed his face
again. Santin had been proud before, but he wasn’t now. He didn’t turn away from
the light. He let them see his terror.
«Do you think you can do it, Vince?», the girl asked.
Her voice was steady. Now that she’d been convinced, she’d be the stronger of
«I don’t know», he said. «But I’ve got to».
Santin saw him coming and closed his eyes.
«Wait a minute», he heard the girl say, as from the
far end of a long tunnel. He existed in a red haze of agony now, and her voice
seemed far away.
«What’s the matter?».
«You’re getting blood on yourself, aren’t you?».
«I don’t know».
«Look and see».
«Yes, I am. But what difference does it make?».
«Vince, Vince, are you crazy? They’ll see the blood.
And maybe, somebody will get suspicious. They can analyze blood, and tell who
in belonged to».
A spark of hope, and Santin dared to open his eyes
again. The boy was poised over him for another onslaught, but now he hesitated.
«I know what to do», he said finally.
He left suddenly, exited from Santin’s view. But
Santin could hear him thrashing around in the weeds. And then finally his
«Arlene, come over and help me lift this».
More thrashing among the weeds. The girl joining the
And the boy’s excited voice. «The guy was thrown out
of the car, wasn’t he? Okay then, he just hit his head on this, that’s all. We’ll
rearrange the body a little. Come on now, let’s lift it together».
A slow returning of footsteps. Wildly, Santin searched
for them. Saw them. They were coming toward him together, their backs bent, straining.
Between them they carried a wide flat object that seemed to be very heavy.
He didn’t scream this time. He couldn’t. Even his
vocal cords were paralyzed. But he could watch them. They walked slowly, with
great effort. They stopped, one on each side of him, and the huge, heavy, flat object
they held blotted out the sky above his face.
Then, at the very last moment of his life, he became
aware of something. A soothing calm flooded over him. I was going to die anyway,
he thought. This is quicker, of course, maybe even, merciful. But it’s also
He prayed. A strange prayer. He prayed for a smart
Sergeant Vanneck of the State Highway Patrol was a
smart cop. In the grey light of dawn, he studied tyre marks on the road. They
were hard to see on the dark asphalt, and he couldn’t be entirely sure.
He was a little surer how he felt about the pair who
stood by his car and watched him as he went about his work. The boy called Vince
and the girl called Arlene. They were like most other youngsters who got
involved in fatal accidents, and they were also different. So, as the dawn grew
brighter, he continued his search.
He found more than he’d expected to find. The body had
been removed and the area was pretty well trampled. But he found the evidence
nevertheless. It was clear, unquestionable.
He climbed back out of the ditch and walked over to
the girl and the boy. There must have been something terrifying in his face,
because it made the boy ask nervously, «What’s the matter Sergeant?».
«There are two sides to a rock», Sergeant Vanneck
said. «The top side stays clean, washed by the rain. The bottom side is dirty
from contact with the ground. Now you tell me, sonny, how Mr. Santin was thrown
from his car so that he hit his head on the bottom side of that rock?».
C. B. Gilford, a modern American detective story
1. slacked off: relieved
2. hog (sl): grab greedily; take all or an unfair share of.
3. shoulder: a strip of land
bordering the road.
4. spout off (sl): talk.
1. What sort of a day had it been for Paul Santin?
2. Why had he chosen that particular country road to reach home?
3. What did he do seeing a car moving towards him with its highway
4. What was he late to realise about the other car?
5. What did he do trying to avoid a collision?
6. What happened when the other car hit him?
7. Why did Santin know he was going to die?
8. Why did he suddenly feel terrified of the two strangers?
9. What mistake did he make in speaking to the girl?
10. Why did Santin believe it necessary that the boy’s blame should be
11. Why did the boy want Santin dead?
12. How did those two carry out their murderous plan?
13. What did Sergeant Vanneck discover when he arrived on the scene?
(b) Read through the
story once again and see if you can find facts to prove that:
1. Paul Santin was in complete control оf himself and the car.
2. The two youngsters were to blame for the accident.
3. Both the youngsters were equally heartless.
4. The police sergeant knew for certain that the boy and the girl had
(c) Talking points:
1. Describe the two young people. Explain their motives in murdering
Paul Santin. Give your opinion as to what precisely decided Paul Santin’s fate.
2. Say what to your mind appears to be the most horrifying thing about
the incident described in the story.
3. Explain the title of the story.
4. Discuss how a person’s true worth will reveal itself in a moment of
danger or stress.
5. Murder will out. Give the
meaning of the proverb and recount a story or incident showing that a person’s
wrongdoing is bound to catch up with him sooner or later.
6. Only stricter traffic laws can prevent accidents. Give all the
arguments you can think of for and against the statement.